Hi Marcel,
I do not want to go into details to everyone that stumbles onto this site. But know you are not crazy. I do want help you by telling you that you were broadcasting thoughts to people around. Know that NO ONE can read your mind! your thoughts are private and what you were doing was putting a thought out which others receive and process in their heads ether consciously or unconsciously… but what they are hearing is their inner voice if anything…generally it is usually silent no voice at all. So if your thinking something and all of a sudden someone around you reacts to something your thinking… they do not know where that thought is coming from just as long as you don’t verbally say right after what you were thinking out loud… . Ever say something and someone responds i was just thinking that… its sort of like that…i’m afraid i have already said too much.
I don’t want you to go on feeling scared and psychotic and afraid to think because everyone is listening to your thoughts. thats why i am writing this. Relax, if you understood more, which I will not teach you,more than anything because the gift you stumbled upon can be used for evil. Know that VERY few people have this GIFT. You were born with it and had this before crystal and/or meditation. You do not gain magical powers from a drugs. you just never realized you were special. its so rare!.
I can understand how scary it is…before i understood and learned more about and how to use my gift…I thought something is very crazy here. constantly i would say this is weird… really weird… am i crazy…If i was high on drugs or staring at a candle for 3 days… trust me i would have just said this cant be real I’M high… i must be gong nuts or its hallucination. PS the TV and commercials have nothing to do with this gift. You may either been really looking for connections because you may have driven yourself a little crazy and paranoid by the things you can do. One possibility is…well read this book: Signs and Wonders : Understanding the Language of God.
Maybe your being guided!
Now most important staying up for days, not eating, or drinking does not help you understand anything, nor does it give you any special powers. nor does staying indoors and staring at candles. That will drive anyone nuts on drugs or not. If anything it will do the opposite and you cant distinguish what is real and what is not. you can not think clearly, know whats right whats wrong and especially if your crazy or not.
I’m not sure how you feel religiously or spiritually but some might wonder that if you need a drug like crystal meth to have these special power… some might think it is an evil force.
if you get anything from me beating around the bush a few times… just know you are not crazy and their are other people like you that have special gifts. and when people do have these gifts we do not talk about it to anyone, simply because they would not understand. you were born with this gift…be happy about it calm down and learn how you can use it to better yourself and only use it with good positive energy not neg and evil. I really wish i could tell you more, but I just do not know you.
PS there is nothing wrong with being on psych medication once you understand yourself…I know a lot about this as well. tell your doctor you want to try Abilify. between that and learning about your gift…I bet you will be able to see much more clearly, be calm, not feel crazy and eventually happy you have this gift.
OH and a piece of advice… do not tell your doctors you have special powers or a magical gift of some sort.
PS ALL the meditation and drugs in the world wouldn’t get you the gift you sound to have. its something your born with
Sincerely,
YouAreNotCrazyChris
Hi Chris,
Thank you for your concern and message. Your advice is very reassuring. Over the years I have grown more comfortable with this “sensitivity” I have when it occurs. Regardless if it is some kind of “psychosis” or psychic gift, I find it to be very therapeutic and healing on an inner psyche level. In some sense I get the impression that it heals karma from this life and previous ones. As I have mentioned, my AYP activities seem to be purifying and opening the nervous system slowly and systematically instead of chaotically. I am very thankful for Yogani for sharing these lessons and to all here on the forum who are sharing their love and wisdom.
Much love,
Marcel 
Hi Marcel,
I read your post from 2011 and was wondering how you are and if you found help? Reading your post touched my heart and would like to help you 
please email me.
It’s incredible that I found people ho are oversensitive like me and expirience the same things.So here’s my story.
I guess the awakening of my Kundalini happened when I tried lucid dreaming.For me it happened real quick. I read that with a special technique you can start lucid dreaming maybe after 2-3 days , for me it happened the moment I felt asleep.Since then I’ve had really bad troubles sleeping-I would experience visualization of beautiful landscapes, OBE , or beautiful music.There was also one experience when I had no perceptions-it was like I knew I was in my room but didn’t feel that way or hear anything and then there was this really loud noise and I “woke up”.It was really amazing ,like I was hearing and seeing for the first time.Some of these expiriences can be really incredible but mostly I’m nervous and most of them can be pretty scary if you don’t practice (like me).The only way I fall asleep is if I drink 3-4 beers.
I think these things happen for a reason.My whole life I stuffed a lot of negative thoughts and a way to look at life,that’s why Buddhism made me think about my hole life and my “true self”.The only things that made me feel human and normal were helping others,but most part of my life I was and still am being a prisoner of my ego hurting most people or being distant from them.So I think that if you want to solve your problems and find who you truly are is integrating the values that Buddhism or some other philosophy preaches.If you meditate but don’t believe in those things and just meditate for no reason I guess it’s just going to be a waste of time.
Oversensitive people like us are empaths and the worst thing that could happen to you is to become a prisoner of your ego and identify with it.
I’m going to start meditating because I guess the reason why this is happening to me is that I awakened this energy and now I’m neglecting that fact and live the same way.
Hi All .I am from Bulgaria .I have Kundulini sindrome from 1year and 5 months .I was take magic mashrums and meditation with yoga .I am still not stabilized.I cant sleep I cant eat strong depression every day I fight for my life kundulini kill me from inside .I cant concentrate .I cant make sex because I have a problem with my prostate and urinate system i live in hell every day of my life .I have only negative thinking and despair.
Hi Marcel
I may be a bit late in replying but hopefully this post still finds you.
I want to explain to you why you do not have an ordinary mental disease even though you have been given this diagnosis. I am a kundalini therapist and have worked with these conditions on various occasions.
You have all the signs of what is called ‘kundalini psychosis’ in contrast to ‘normal psychosis’ (sorry, they are both horrible names but kundalini psychosis is a lot ‘better’ as I will explain below)
The signs are
- you know exactly when your psychosis started and that is was triggered by excessive spiritual practice
- you maintained (or regained shortly afterwards) a healthy part of your personality that knew that something was wrong (people in ‘normal psychosis’ do not have this awareness; they are entirely eaten up by their psychotic thoughts)
- you can talk about your experiences and you do want to talk about it (people with normal mental illness rarely want to do this)
The good news is that the prognosis for recovery from kundalini psychosis is much much higher than from ordinary psychosis.
Some people argue (and I would agree) that the term psychosis is misleading as it really is another problem than ordinary mental illness.
I have worked with quite a few people suffering from these symptoms and I can confirm that people recover much faster if they know what is going on with them and that they are not suffering from ordinary mental illness.
This is the reason I am writing this and hope that it will bring you comfort and courage and also to everybody else who is suffering from these distressing symptoms.
Tara Springett - Buddhist teacher and kundalini therapist
Hi Tara,
It’s so good to find you, after over 10 years! Thanks for your feedback - it’s reassuring and I’m sure it’ll help many others out there as well. For anyone else interested in Tara’s work, check out the link to her website on her profile page.
Much love,
Marcel
Hi WarriorOfGod,
If you’re still around and for anyone who is still interested in an update, here we go:
So, I’ve been stable on psych meds (an antipsychotic and mood stabilizers) since 2011. Even though my diagnosis may not be totally accurate - schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia coupled with bipolar disorder) - I do need the meds to function normally. Perhaps my body is hooked on them by now; every time I’ve gone off them since 2002 I’ve had some kind of relapse of psychosis, depression, or mania.
I still have side-effects from the meds, including concentration difficulties, higher blood-sugar and cholesterol levels, among other things. Nevertheless, I’ve been able to lead a relatively normal life, for the most part, over the last decade.
I’ve continued my spiritual search, reading and studying other teachers including Osho, Eckhart Tolle, Mooji, Adyashanti, Ramana Maharshi, Papaji, Nisaragdatta Maharaj, and Sadhguru, among others.
I’ve also self-published three books: Living Thoughts: Glimpses into the Altered Reality of Schizophrenia, Mystical Musings: Poetry, Insights and other Writings, and Presence Power: Insights from the Depths of Being. They can be found on Amazon and other online booksellers under my name, Marcel Armstrong. Quite a few people have found them helpful.
Here’s a link to my author page:
https://www.amazon.com/author/marcelarmstrong
Otherwise, I have a new post on this forum regarding a possible Kundalini overload from AYP and DM. That can be found here:
https://www.aypsite.org/forum/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=19448#19448
Many thanks and much love,
Marcel
Hello again Marcel, I wished I read this thread, before answering the other one. You have certainly had “a long strange trip”. Good for you for fostering your creativity, and hopefully you are in a better place. I do still think you should still hold off much inner work and ground ground ground. And when you realize stability, then go very slowly forward, no extended mantras, or add-on practices, just minutes of SBP and DM.
It probably would not hurt to inquire of yourself, in any given moment of your day, “where is the silence here?” and then be there. It is training your body memory to gravitate towards silence. Your body has a problem with energy, but your well of silence is bottomless, if you are open enough, and quiet enough.
Take good care. This is our charge while we are here
Hello Dogboy,
Thanks again for your insight and advice. Yes, it has been “a long strange trip”. Thankful for you and everyone here.
All the best
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Hello All,
I’m reading “Healing Kundalini Symptoms: Proven Techniques That Really Work” by Tara Springett and wanted to share these quotes with you.
“When the painful, frightening and confusing symptoms predominate we speak of the so-called kundalini syndrome. One should bear in mind, however, that kundalini syndrome is not a mental illness or neurosis but is still fundamentally an expansion of consciousness, which is always a higher development even if it is very challenging at times. It is mainly the lack of information that can lead people to confuse it with various mental disorders and thus create even more fear than necessary.
Kundalini syndrome can be confused with the following diseases and disorders: drug psychosis, burn-out, conversion syndrome, bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, various personality disorders and psychotic illness. The most important difference between these mental problems and kundalini syndrome is the active desire for spirituality and health, which are central for someone with a kundalini awakening but tends to decrease with the other disorders.
Unfortunately, mental issues can occur simultaneously with kundalini syndrome and for this reason, it can be difficult to draw a clear line between these states. However, I would like reassure my readers already now that, in my opinion, a psychosis through a kundalini awakening only happens very rarely and only if a person has a disposition for such an illness…
During a drug psychosis, people can experience symptoms similar to a kundalini awakening such as intensified sensitivity, increased emotion (usually fear) and paranormal experiences (usually paranoia and strong confusion). Less likely are energy movements in the body.
Thankfully, a drug psychosis usually resolves all by itself but it may take many months. I have had quite a number of clients who had a kundalini awakening and a drug psychosis simultaneously. The treatment is the same as for the pure kundalini syndrome but one should expect a longer duration of treatment. It is also more difficult to experience positive results with higher-consciousness healing because we are dealing with chemicals in the body and not only with one’s mind…
Bipolar disorder (manic-depressive disorder):
This disorder is a mental illness in which phases of mania or elation and depression alternate. To warrant such a diagnosis, there must be a serious impairment of functioning in a person`s life - intense feelings of bliss and sadness alone are not a basis for a diagnosis. In a real mania, those affected sometimes accrue high debts through reckless financial decisions and excessive shopping, put themselves at risk through dangerous sexual actions, behave inappropriately in public and may even lose their job or life partner through their irresponsible behaviours.
It is possible to confuse the mania of bipolar disorder with the euphoria and bliss that becomes more intense during the kundalini process. On closer examination, however, it quickly becomes clear that these two states of mind are very different. The mania in bipolar disorder is basically a feeling of restless drivenness in which a person often feels quite irritable and which often leads to irresponsible actions like unrestrained shopping or other risky behaviours. The high spirits in the kundalini process, however, are a form of real bliss, completely free of any form of striving. They are sustained orgasmic feelings in every part of the body accompanied by a feeling of being united with the divine and these states often produce profound spiritual insights. Moreover, these experiences continue to inspire the person even when the joy has subsided whereas, after a mania, people usually feel profound regret and depression.
Sometimes people with bipolar disorder can also experience elated moods but the difference from a kundalini awakening is the fact that people going through the latter always know how to behave like a “normal person”. They would not do the inappropriate things a manic person may do such as undressing in public or embarking on a mad shopping frenzy, which they would regret at a later stage.
I had several clients who had a bipolar diagnosis and experienced a kundalini awakening at the same time. Here is the best course of action to strengthen people’s insight into their illness: learn to notice the early warning signs (for example, the decreased need for sleep and food) and surround yourself with people who can help before you completely lose control. Depending on the severity of the condition, medication can sometimes be unavoidable.” (pgs. 34-38)
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So, all in all, it appears - given this information - that I have had all 3 cases over the years: a kundalini awakening coupled with a drug psychosis initially followed by authentic bipolar disorder sometime afterwards.
Anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this and for your interest in this unique case-study 
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Marcel
Marcel, Sorry to hear of your struggles. Thank you for sharing this information. I was actually wondering about the difference between mania and the ecstatic state. I do not suffer from bipolar disorder but have been quite taken by the elevated mood meditation can create and am happy to have a metric for evaluating healthy ecstatic states with true diseased states. We live in a culture where people quickly pathologize behaviors (e.g. eastern yoga practices and their manifestations) rather than accept they may actually be heightened ways of engaging in life. My sense is few people who haven’t been exposed to yoga truly understand these ecstatic states, or even believe they exist. We are all quite aware of psychiatric illness and the powerful mind altered states that come from drugs.