We must be mad, reading the self-inquiry book while staying home with an overload symptom flu with exquisite extra symptoms on top, but we somehow found that to be the perfect way to get time filled here 
. Someone might suffer from it later onâŠ
My mind thought it was a jolly good idea to read such an interesting book, that would help me along the spiritual journey. Oh, it knows thatâs what counts now, and is always supportive to new ideas. âNext book will bring me closerâ âNext course will add to progressâ âNext insight will be deeperâ⊠
Self-indulgent, sly and cunningâŠ
So we sat down and body-mind smiled and cheered as we read along the first pages. âYoganiâs darn good, ainât he?â mind said, and was very impressed with the writings.
Somewhere around page 28 mind became very interested, and by 31 going exalted. âWeeeee, I can COMPARE and MEASURE my own development! Yeeehaaa!â and off mind went into a raging comparison session, building fantasies about all and everyone writing on forum, guessing their state of mind⊠and falling into self-doubt and other juicy stuff when not being sure of its own status⊠
And then mind got sort of quiet again, while we kept reading further⊠By page 67 something started to happen⊠Body had slided down the chair, leaning sloppy backwards with head forward like a vulture. Body-mind kept the eyes lowered with an increasingly grumpy face, looking like a neanderthal with eyebrows frowning and lower jaw pushing out front, having a very, very suspicious look in the eyes. Witnessing it from outside the body, while mind was thinking âIt feels as if I have been fooledâŠâ âwait, wait⊠somethings wrongâŠâ âThis book is sort of dissing me, and I have encouraged reading this?â mind suddenly being aware of the surrealistics going on here, being witnessed in current neanderthal state⊠
A total bubbling joyous laughter from the inner space resulting in an unstoppable loud laughter filling the room⊠At page 67 mind totally logged out with a grumpy attitude and a bitter taste in the mouth, leaving a gigantic laughter in its place⊠Hilarious!
Fabulous book, Yogani! Iâd give a million bucks to see that neanderthal face again⊠(Hey, who said that?)
PS. At least, laughing makes me breath anyway⊠LOL!.. better than breath suspension⊠ROTFLâŠ
Oh my God EmcâŠI am in stiches!
That was INCREDIBLY funny!!!
I am still cryingâŠin the midst of grieving my mother (in the Tantric sex and birth control topic)âŠand I clicked on your post and boooooooom
i am laughing so hard I can hardly breathe.
You are a naturalâŠI am saying this with a kind of draaagâŠyou know, the way Sandra Bullock says: You want to loooove me, you think Iâm goooooorgiousâŠin that beauty queen movieâŠ(âohâŠi wish i had a brainâ)
Oh my GodâŠthank you emc.
I am VERY relieved.
Now Iâll read your post againâŠso if youâll excuse meâŠ
⊠And I read your post in the Tantric Sex thread right after I had written this, and thought⊠Oh my God, how awesome that such great grief and such great joy can coexist in the same space⊠Wonderful existence!
Lots of love to you, Katrine, weâre grieving with you⊠with joyâŠ!
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divine emc, you are a joyful being! your joys are contagious!
the mind plays in so many ways. esp when we are reading an intensely rich book- first like a fox checking out how tired we might be- sometimes like a tiger trying to overpower the âwakeâ state. from the distance, we watch this fun and place the mind back to reading the book and wait for the state of sleep to come in its several disguises. and finally succumbs to be a donkey.
nabbing the mind several times as it comes to play as âsleepâ and then as the âawakeâ state, we are ready to throw the mind far so we can then dissolve in the infinite space. dreamless sleep as in the void deathlike immense space and as the witness.
the witness is always the joyful being riding this donkey that in a thought is a horse and in another thought the eagle that glides.
all in yet another beautiful expansive infinite joyful thought!
divine katrine, sharing with you the deep sorrow. the void you feel must be so hard to fill. we are with you as spirit to gently hold the realization of how we slip out of spirit to be body and how we each are given the wisdom of the spirit through a personal loss. take care, divine one!
Hey, I was just reminded of this old post when writing a post on FBâŠ
Hard knocks:
First we enjoy sex, drugs and rockân roll - then we canât take it - and when we can take it again - we donât want it! =)
Another one, Iâm beginning to discover: When I finally start accepting and forgiving and thereby LOVING myself thoroughly, including everything - Iâm no longer âmyselfâ⊠High self-esteem is high esteem of the Self, not myself⊠What a bummer! 
And a third one, discovered a few years ago: When we think weâre gonna win the enlightenment competition and are proud of having reached the higher states⊠the mind might discover the price is to lose the game completely - itâs only winning itâs own defeatâŠ
⊠and after having written the last line I suddenly remembered this post.
Beautiful emc 