Hello everyone,
Lately I’ve been reflecting on what it means to have a “right relationship with God.” Yogani says God and inner silence are essentially the same thing, and I feel more and more that I need that silence.
I’ve experimented with different approaches over the years but what seems to work best is twice-daily deep meditation for about 20 minutes, and trusting the process of purification.
I’ve been experiencing sensations of energy around my teeth, third eye, and sometimes in my arms and legs. They aren’t always comfortable, but I suspect they’re purification symptoms. Interestingly, when they arise, I feel less inclined to smoke, and lustful triggers have less pull. So even though the sensations aren’t smooth, they seem to be accompanied by positive changes.
Inner silence has already started teaching me. For example, I notice how a small irritation (like toothpaste not being where I expected) creates a bodily discomfort and the beginning of a resentful thought toward someone. In that moment, I can see it for what it is, let it go, and rest in silence. That feels powerful.
I am beginning to “talk to God” — to ask questions in silence, and to pause in stillness before beginning a new task. These simple things seem to help me surrender control and return attention to something greater than myself, bringing the possibility of change and the ability to choose differently.
I get the sense that I’m close, and that the path is more about letting go of what doesn’t work than about adding more effort.
Thanks for reading. 