Hello, I would be curious to receive some answers as how to deal with kundalini issues - though it probably is a mix of different things, a lot of it could be trauma related as well. So far I have realized that I need to work with the body and not just inquiry / the mind, but I do have challenges with my body too. I deal with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and a underactive thyroid, so it is difficult to do things as I feel like under a heavy blanket a lot of the time. Even just lifting an arm feels like huge work. So for me the physical issues are so severe I am on government support now. I would like to do more and move more, but there is pain in the body and the energy level is very low. A bit of walking is ok mostly, as long as it isn’t too long or the temperatures too warm. I can manage 30 minutes, sometimes more.
So my main question would be how do you support a body that is extremely exhausted, as overdoing makes the symptoms even worse?
- What are your symptoms and how long have you had them? Are your symptoms primarily physical, psychological, or both? — In 2010 I have had a heroic dose of psilocybin mushrooms which I feel opened some doors that never closed again. In 2015 I become very spiritually activer and a year later, I had a lot of repressed emotions and trauma come up. In 2021 I was doing nondual spiritual inquiry daily for weeks, pushing way over my limits and developed trigeminal neuralgia which in hindsight could have been Kundalini being very active. It was very electric, intense, I couldn’t sleep, there was shaking and a feeling of going insane from the intensity of it all. At the moment my symptoms are moving between extremely low energy and anxiety. There are burst of energy sometimes, waves of orgasmic bliss, feeling like exploding, shaking / spasms. Things do change a lot very quickly and I feel like travelling between different states and it can all feel very confusing. All is well in one moment and there is deep peace, and then again some somatic agony that is hard to bear. Sometimes I feel like I am in some other dimension even though I do not choose to go there. I feel like I get constantly overwhelmed by energies and sensations and all feels too much.
- Are your symptoms ongoing, or intermittent? If intermittent, when are they most likely to occur – during what kind of activity and/or time of the day? Is your sleep affected? — It comes and goes in waves. When I have a call with someone where I feel safe that a lot of stuff wants to move through and that I seem to be picking up other peoples energies or stuff and processing it. It is like a filter that I have always had has broken down and where I end and where others start has become different. I need a lot of time alone.
- Do you consider your situation with kundalini to be the result of spiritual practices, or do you regard it to be spontaneous? — I do think that it might have started with the psychedelics, and then the second wave has come on by strong spiritual focus and deep inquiry.
- What sort of spiritual practices have you been engaged in, if any? How long? How often? Are you aware that excessive spiritual practice can aggravate kundalini, often with a delayed reaction? — Even just spending hours a day reading spiritual material, watching videos, having spiritual calls and doing inquiry has been very intense. I wasn’t aware of it at the time, but now I am. I have been doing this for years, pretty much every day since 20215. As i have ben suffering for a long time and wanting “out”. As for specific practises, I have been mostly doing inquiry and working with patterns / shadow / mind / inquiry, as well as inner journeying and observing myself and my thoughts a lot. Also some yoga and qigong.
- Do you consider yourself to be “sensitive” to spiritual practices? If so, with what practices, and what sort of measures have you taken to accommodate your sensitivity? — Yes. I am sensitive to energy in general. I try to modify when practises are getting too intense, to do less than I think I should do and learn to live in harmony with my body, which I had neglected previously.
- Do you think drugs have contributed to your kundalini situation? — Yes. Psychedelics, as mentioned before.
- Have you experienced traumatic events in your life that may have a bearing on your current symptoms? — Yes, I have had a traumatic childhood on a ongoing basis. C-PTSD. I also have had traumatic medical procedures. I don’t feel safe in the body really and physical symptoms can be the most difficult triggers.
- Is your sexual lifestyle affecting your symptoms? Are you aware that obsessively limiting sexual release can increase kundalini energy and symptoms? — I haven’t had sex in over six years and I haven’t been dating.
- What is your general diet? Are you aware that a lighter diet can stimulate kundalini? — I cannot do a light diet, as I feel floaty. I do well on rice, fish, chicken, veggies, cooked meals.
- Do you engage in moderate exercise regularly, like walking, yard work, etc? Are you aware that regular exercise can help stabilize (“ground”) kundalini symptoms? — I walk daily as I find it helpful to keep moving a bit, do some stretching and go swimming in summer. I wish I could do more but too much exercise also backfires for me.
- Are you a highly devotional person? Are you aware that excessive devotional activity, satsang or spiritual study can aggravate an active kundalini? — I am not very devotional.
- Are you engaged in ordinary daily activities like a job, school, family, parenting, social activity, service to others? Are you aware that such activities, undertaken without spiritual intention or expectations, can help ground excessive kundalini energies? — I haven’t been able to work a regular job all my life. At the moment, I am on government support as I am dealing with low energy and cannot keep pushing anymore. I used to make some money selling my art, but I have quit that some months ago. I was burning myself out with that and the constant survival stress if I can make ends meet. There are many activities at home I would like to do but my body is so exhausted, there is not much room for doing and this might be an intentional lesson in learning to slow down as I have always been very busy in my life doing a lot, achieving a lot.
- Have you been examined and treated by a medical doctor or mental health professional for your symptoms in the past? If so, what was the result? — Yes, I have dealt with mental health issues since my teens, they diagnosed me with clinical depression. I have tried medication but it just made it worse. I have had heart palpitations lately and they didn’t find anything. I have an underactive thyroid with autoimmune disease and am now on medication for that. The labs have improved a bit but I am meant to take a higher dose now. They also diagnosed me with CFS and fibromyalgia, as well as autism.
- Are there other factors and/or measures you are taking in relation to your situation that are not covered above? — I am having conversations with friends which I do find very helpful, even though there is some discussing of spiritual matters. I have some videocalls and support from a friend who is further along on the journey, but lately I am getting very wary of his advice “Just stop the thoughts, the sensations itself are neutral and no problem”. I don’t find this helpful at all when dealing with energetic things. Thoughts aren’t the biggest issue, but just dealing with the energies in the body. This kind of mental approach hasn’t been useful lately with what I am experiencing.
- Optional: What is your approximate age (teen, 20s, 30s, 40s, etc.)? What is your gender? We ask because the manifestation of kundalini symptoms can be affected by these factors. — 40 and female
Thank you for making it this far and I am curious what your suggestions are!