Premature Sahasrar Opening

14. Kundalini - AYP Practice-Related
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I (male, 30s) started the Yogani program six weeks ago. Twenty minutes of DM twice a day. After a short while, I added 5 minutes, then 10 minutes of SBP. For the past week, I’ve been practicing combining spinal breathing with the Full Yogic Breath (FYB).
My experience over the past six weeks: At the beginning a slight tingling in my spine, then ecstasy, then sexual arousal. Then came a day when I couldn’t practice. So I wanted to make up for it the next day. So I practiced three times instead of twice. The third time, I managed the FYB very well and experienced the greatest ecstasy ever. My deep meditation was also much deeper afterward. Unfortunately, my Sahasrara opened up a little in the process. Now I can feel it all day long now in my daily life (its an unpleasant pressure).
I feel anxious throughout the day and very unbalanced. I’m afraid that the Kundalini will now fully awaken and plunge my life into chaos. I’m afraid to connect with my sahasra. I try to push it away, but it’s no use. I now have the following plan (=self pacing):

  1. Pause the program and do mindfulness techniques instead.
  2. I will do more sports and eat heavier (I’m already well integrated into daily activities (work, friends, etc.)).
  3. When I feel stable, I’ll do only 2 sessions of 10 minutes of DM per day. After that: a walk.
  4. If I remain stable, I’ll add another 5 minutes of spinal breathing. After that: a walk.

I’ve tried to read everything Yogani has written on the subject. I used the AI to help me. But two questions remain: First: Are there any techniques that can help me right now? Second: Since SBP is supposed to stabilize the Kundalini energies, I should probably just keep going (By the way: I’ve always focused on the channel between the Root and Ajna and never on the Sahasrara during spinal breathing). But on the other hand, SBP is what awakened the Kundalini energies in the first place. I’m confused—what can I do?

PS: I’ve taken LSD quite a few times in my life (the last dose: 2 y ago). About 50 times in total. But only small amounts (usually 20–30 micrograms). Other than that, I drink coffee every day and take kratom once a week. I’ve also tried a lot of other things once (marijuana, ketamine, …). Maybe that stirred up the energies too soon, and I’m not ready. I have now completely cut out the last drug from my life. Even coffee, just to be sure.

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Hi Novice,

Welcome to the forum!

Sorry you are having difficulty. Clearly you have taken on too much too soon. That, possibly combined with past drug usage, has made you sensitive to practices.

First, drop the SBP for at least several months. It can help balance energies, but in some cases can aggravate them. In your case it appears to be the latter. You can try a few minutes of gentle alternate nostril breathing (non-spinal) to calm the system down before meditation, but not if it adds discomfort.

It is suggested to focus on developing a stable meditation practice, with nothing substantial added for at least a few months, preferably six months or more with meditation only. Maybe some light asanas (5-10 min) before meditation if they do not aggravate your energies. And make sure to take a good rest after meditation, 5-10 min, lying down if convenient.

Regarding meditation, if 10 minutes twice a day with mantra (AYAM) is leading to discomfort in daily activity, then try using breath as object instead of the mantra. as discussed in Lesson 367. If daily activity is still rough, then try sitting with passive awareness as you mentioned (just noticing whatever comes up) for 10 minutes twice a day. If twice a day is too much, then try once a day.
Note: Do not try modifying the mantra. That is for advanced practitioners. Use I AM/AYAM only.

The measures you mentioned in your list are good. Best to slow down, and restart slow when ready. Find your pace. Adding on time or practices should be after months of stability, not days or weeks. So the suggestion is to go slow and build your practice in a way that accommodates your capacity. It is a multi-month and multi-year process, not something that can be done in days or weeks. That you have found out. Be kind to yourself. It is going to be alright.

The guru is in you.

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PS: Regarding premature sensations at the sahasrar (crown), best to just let that go, keeping busy with other things in life, which is what you are doing. It is the right approach. It is time to cultivate abiding inner silence in daily meditation in a way that works best for you, and stabilize silence (witness) in daily activity, which lays the foundation for advancing experiences. All things in good time.

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