Sent an email to Yogani and he encouraged me to post, so I decided to do so.
I had my first taste of ecstatic bliss 11 years ago in 2015 after about 2 to 3 weeks of doing the AYP practices.
I have gone on and off the practices at different times, but I was having a hugely transformational experience about a month ago and felt a huge calling into the yogic practices, extending into learning about hinduism, etc.
What has been going on is almost entirely limited to a 20 minute practice, 5 minutes of pranayama and 15 of deep meditation, twice per day.
I have easily been having kundalini energy coming up for the past month maybe once or twice in the practices, it felt very sudden, intense and pleasurable.
These past few days, it’s moving into a whole different level of experience.
I felt maybe 5 or 6 days ago that I was automatically starting to get pulled into mulabandha (sp?) during breathing and started to feel a more intense level of energy inside throughout.
2-3 days ago, I added Sambhavi and it was like my entire being was being pulled into the heavens.
I am now having these huge waves of orgasmic pleasure that are coming through my entire body during the practice.
It’s like I can feel the entirety of my body from perineum to the third eye are a like.. pure energy.
Now, during the practice, my entire body is jerking around. I can feel something way beyond twisting my neck, my lower back, my hips. It’s jerking and twitching, while me, myself, am in a state of enrapture in Sambhavi.
Forgive me for not knowing the terms well, but I am going into the full chin pumping, the faster paced almost pant-like breathing and the mulabandha without being in control of any of it. I, the me that is observing, is just a witness and in total surrender to the energy that is coming up. I hope this all makes sense.
What’s also happening is I can feel different parts of my cranium are pulsating, it’s almost like the energy is directing me to pulsate parts of my head, I had no idea it was even possible to feel those things or do that. I also started to pull my tongue back, I had to look up why and found it’s called kechari. I can feel my body wanting to realize huge amounts of tension through my lower jaw and root of the tongue, and just all around, in order to push further back.
Again, it’s not ME doing this, it’s like I am in a state of pure ecstasy in waves in total backseat to this.
I am coming out of this 20 minutes feeling quite incredible, but I wanted to share because I think it’s quite intense and there’s a huge part of me that is screaming, “This is what you have been waiting for for your entire life, this is the moment” in a very, I can’t even explain it well, it’s like a KNOWING that this is what I need to do, but I also feel quite solitary in the experience and wanted to share.
Small update Definitely took this too far, had some sleeping issues yesterday due to the feeling of “being pulled” into Sambhava and my body wanting to get the energy going. Any tips for me?
Anyway, thanks for reading and lemme know your thoughts,
Jonathan
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