Live the dream. Itâs beautiful.
You weave through the layers with a fine delicacy. It is enjoyable to observe your process of relational self-inquiry. Thank you for sharing your experience of navigating these multiple levels of consciousness.
I suppose the magic occurs when each respective personâs needs and wants intertwine, and in that union, there is fulfillment. Much like the individual instruments of an orchestra retain their unique timbre, and yet resound together in concordant harmonyâthereby becoming wholeâso too can souls align when their purpose is true and genuine and parallel. In this sense, airplane pilots can co-mingle with businessmen, poets can dance with doctors, and amateurs can switch places with experts in all manners of expression.
The palette of experience has no limits to its tone or color, and if ever we were innocent in exploring these shades of blindness, now would be the time to be innocent, and truly humble, as we come to terms with the magnitude of our gifts. All from the divine, which is way beyond my feeble comprehension.
I aim to die everyday, so I can be reborn into this mysterious and refreshing flow of Oneness.
Forgive the romanticism.
At your service. 
Thanks Bodhi.
Coming into our true nature is not about (1) self-effacemement, (2) blending into blah-ness or (3) the most feared âloss of individualityâ or the âdarnedâ ego. All these are mental pre-conceptions, none of which are true. What is lost (or, more accurately here, is in the process of losing) is identification as the limited self. What does that actually mean? It simply means that each moment is lived fully, in the raw, without being clouded by the layers of learned interpretations, constructs, good/bad, like/donât like, and such. No need to die everyday to be reborn - in this eternal âam-nessâ, every moment is absolutely fresh, vibrant, alive. Total and complete wondrous innocence.
It is like finally tasting the actual food, not the recipe. But the food is tasted through the same body, the same lifestyle and relationships, the same daily routine, the same contributions through chosen work⌠Same yet somehow just not the same. The relief, peace and joy of being some âthingâ (actually not a thing at all) that is vast beyond comprehension or expression really does instantly negate all the things it is not.
Remember Saint Francisâ famous prayer? âIt is in dying that we are born into the eternal selfâŚâ Dying of what? First and foremost of tightly held concepts of what âitâ is (1-3 above)âŚ
Thank you for the romanticism - thoroughly appreciate it, as that is the framework here as well.
Love.
Hi kami
Have been enjoying youâre lovely writing.
Wondering, in relation to the above, if you have considered what is the origin of a thought. It seems they keep coming in all their various types.
Whatever about thoughts building upon other thoughts and the development of stories and beliefs etc⌠What I am talking about is the origin of an original thought out of silence. How does this arise and where does it come from??
Dear Sparkle,
Thank you for reading my endless ramblings.
What you ask has been the subject of inquiry here. And in these explorations, every single thought can be traced back to the concept-thought-belief of âme-nessâ. And itâs closely related sibling, âdoing-nessâ. A thought is just a thought - it cannot actually âthinkâ, much less analyze itself (without more thoughts). So what gives a thought its power? The analysis that is derived from past experiences, acquired knowledge/information and imagination about an unknown future or outcome. Where did these come from? From âmeâ, this concept-belief as a separate entity, entirely dependent on ânot meâ, that is, âothersâ. This differentiation is the root cause of all emotional coloring that drives the analysis above. But where is this me exactly? If I cut open my body, will I find it? If I say its in my mind, the question will be where is the mind? In any of my brain dissections in medical school, I didnât find a mind or thoughts or intelligence. So where is the me? Most importantly, what is the me?
Thus far, it is found to be no where, and no actual thing, except this - the initial thought of âmeâ as an actual entity has propagated every single thought-emotion complex that has risen to keep the âme-nessâ alive. And in retrospect, all âdoing-nessâ has come from this original misidentification. I thought that âme-nessâ was the one âdoingâ or ânot doingâ the endless things of my own accord. But in reality, there is no âmeâ except as the thought-concept-belief. So who was âdoingâ? Besides, no doing or not doing was ever âfreeâ of all the stuff that goes into analysis (above). Every action and âchoiceâ has been entirely dependent on all those factors, the root cause of which was âme-nessâ.
In these deep explorations, this misperception of identifying as the âme-nessâ seems to be the original âsinâ, the foundation of the âcastles in the airâ that drive our living.
Love to you.
Hi kami
Thanks for that explanation.
Yes I get what you are saying, what I like to explore though is something that has arisen in some Insight Dialogue retreats with Gregory Kramer.
As the week of a retreat develops and the inner silence builds Gregory sometimes asks people to inquire into listening to oneâs own voice emerge out of silence. In this listening, for me at least, it is easy to see also the emerging of the thought as it tumbles into words spoken and heard. It is like it emerges out of an interface between silence and life.
As I see it, what happens after that is what you are talking about, identification with these thoughts, with these images and the memories and putting together of all our stories.
Whether a person is very unaware or whether they are a Buddha there is still this interface where ideas/thoughts emerge. As you know in Insight Dialogue there is this trusting of what emerges and there does not have to be anyone identifying in order for this to happen, it just happens.
It is like life creating itself in our lives all the time at this interface. What we âdoâ with it afterwards is another matter.
For me it is like an intelligence moving through us all the time, creating and emerging through each of us.
And yes I agree that identification is what creates the suffering but also with non-identification the emergence of this intelligence through us still goes on - call it God, love or whatever. To say there is nothing does not make sense in my experience but maybe Iâm missing something, which is more than possible 
Ahhh, I see what youâre saying dear Sparkle. Sorry for the tangential dissertation.
Yes, I would agree it is ridiculous to say there is nothing. And yes, there is the intelligence that makes bodies/thoughts/emotion possible, that âanimatesâ all these constructs. That intelligence is what we are. Thoughts/bodies etc are downstream to this intelligence - they happen within this intelligence/now-ness. And thoughts happen spontaneously, arising from this spacious now-ness, receding back into it. When a thought arises in the now-ness, it is actually that now-ness occurring as the thought. That is how it is evolving here. Quite possible it will be totally false in a while!!
You are right that thoughts occur spontaneously whether it is a Buddha or not⌠But it seems that a thought begets more thoughts when the original one gets associated with âme-nessâ. This is why Buddhas would have relatively very few thoughts compared to someone who is tightly identified with the âmeâ. Where they come from is awareness. Why? No idea.
Does that make a bit more sense?
Much love.
Yes weâre on the same page thanks kami.
A friend shared this on FB yesterday that touches upon the bypassing discussed above.
Mooji, dealing with vasanas: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bz48uDe0hQw&sns=em
Meditation sessions have evolved dramatically the last few weeks where I just sit, and let things flow. Let everything come up as it does without trying to manipulate anything, go back to breath/mantra etc. Sitting this way this morning, the issue of all the âdifficultâ relationships that somehow continue to be seen in the mind to be âdifficultâ, or âunsavoryâ, or âwish it werenât soâ, etc etc came up. As it arose, the realization dawned was subtle but significant - all along, it was Being pushing and prodding the âmeâ to wake up. Completely loving and yet completely impersonal. This was seen very clearly; the seeming sequence of events that led to taking up spiritual practices and then being pushed off the edge with inquiry⌠I was asking the wrong question by asking âwhyâ, when the only question to ask is âhowâ. In asking how, the answer is intuitively clear - exactly this way. When thus seen through this fresh perspective, all the adjectives of âdifficultâ, âunsavoryâ, etc fall away into âallowingâ. Perhaps this will need to be seen repeatedly, but thatâs ok.
It now feels that there was a subtle but definitive turn on this spiritual journey. All the practices âbeforeâ and âafterâ. Surrender has become relational, as has inquiry. But neither are relational to inner silence but what is felt here to be the more subtle, âI Am-nessâ. Relational with respect to subjectivity, and not objective (felt/experienced) inner silence. Inner silence is of course the I Am-ness in the ultimate sense. But further upstream from inner silence, witness becomes Being, I am. Mysterious and yet so familiar⌠Intimacy that cannot be described.
Kami
thanks for sharing.
âThe incredible power of letting goâŚâ
It says lot. Whenever there is an issue i am holding on to it. When someone reminds me to let it go it really helps.
Thanks
PKJ