Over the last 6 months of my meditation practice, around 10-20% of the time I meditate, I tend to enter a state which feels a bit like meditation, and a bit like sleep. It’s extremely hard to describe. I think yogani’s description of “fuzzy” is probably the best way to describe it. However, it doesn’t feel like the mantra is what’s getting fuzzy, like he describes. It feels like everything, primarily my thoughts and perception are getting fuzzy, far away, and hard to grab onto. Perhaps the closest thing I can compare it to is the feeling of dreaming, or the feeling you get right before you fall asleep.
I am fairly sure it isn’t sleepiness per say because I don’t feel the least bit sleepy going into the meditation, and I don’t feel sleepy after.
Where things get interesting though is, often times when I am in this state, things will get so fuzzy that I will lose my balance over and over again. I meditate without back support. I will start to literally fall over, and then I will get that immediate “feeling of falling” (kind of like when you lean back in your chair a little too far), which will cause me to catch myself and pop back up again.
There have been a few times where I actually haven’t caught myself and hit the wall behind me (gently). Luckily I have never fallen all the way to the floor.
This will happen over and over again in a particularly deep meditation session. I feel like I’ve had sessions where I’ve had to catch myself from falling 20-30+ times. It can be somewhat disorienting and distracting at times to be honest.
I know that this certainly isn’t anything to worry about. Great signs of inner purification I’m sure. But I am just so curious, has anyone else experienced anything like this?
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