Hello. I have had an interest in philosophy for some time now and some religious interest that lasted until some time ago, but I am still intrigued by religion or spiritual or metaphysical thoughts, and I have had an interest in biology for some time now.
I, before getting to this forum, learned some 2 years ago about catholic saints and mystics from different religions are described or have themselves described in writing that they experienced or could experience more or less frequently, ecstatic or mystical experiences; later, unrelatedly to my curiosity about the mystical experiences of extraordinary theist devotees, I come to learn that males are capable of multiple orgasms, then learnt that there are extremely rare cases of men who don’t have or have insignificant refractory periods; then I learn about expanded sexual response in women, and that quite a lot if not most ESR women can experience ecstatic or mystical experiences; then, more recently, I discovered this forum and read some posts and liked and bookmarked some, and now know that ecstatic or mystical experiences can come to happen to a certain group of humans through studies and practices related to yoga, like meditation and the other practices that are frequently mentioned in this forum; just today, I learnt about ‘ecstatic epilepsy’ and the related ‘ecstatic seizures’, that is a basically a rare type of epilepsy with seizures occuring that “are often described as mystical, spiritual, and/or religious, and have sometimes been said to be life-changing."; and, of course, I have read before that with LSD and a broad variety of other drugs, experiences said to be ecstatic or mystical can end up occurring.
I am now very interested, intrigued, and passively desirous of experiencing ecstasy and theophany. Yet, I feel curious, intrigued, by the distribution of these experiences. ESR women and the group of people with that rare type of epilepsy, for example, for sure were not all previously devotees to some kind of sacred or idealized object; they seemingly just happened to have the biology necessary to have easier access than most to those phenomena.
I consider my intellect to have thoughts with characteristics considerably of a theist and of a pessimist. One of the thoughts that have been most present with me recently is that the vast majority, including me, maybe everybody, underestimates the natural world and what possibilities exist within nature (without needing supernatural resources involved to be possible and for their occurrence to be described).
I believe I am unworthy of ecstatic and mystical experiences that just a few in the total population throughout all of human history have lived. Some are born with cerebral paralysis or have an IQ under 70, and those we can, I think, securely presume do not stand a chance of experiencing such things. But, from the cases of a diversity of people that experienced or were quite often experiencing such, that I’ve read until now, it is not necessary to be an outliner in intellectual or spiritual aspects of a human for it to end up happening to you, an ecstatic or mystical experience. I am morally wrecked and have not a promising personality; even then, I can’t simply—well, I could try, but I think I would not be able to sustain it, distracting from what I’ve happened to discover about and am now fascinated and desirous of—so I wonder what to do, and I think living once or various times an ecstatic or mystical experience will stand as something I’ll spend the next decades of my life pursuing somehow. You can see why, the reason being there is just nothing else as pursuable as that. I don’t want a lifetime of occasional average sex, alcohol, pizza and other savory foods, or whatever else that constitutes compulsions and distractions of utter insufficiency in their nature.
