How to easily return
to the mantra when AYP makes
you able to focus more, perhaps have more will, and thereby to go deeper?
I tend to use will to sit down to
practice, but also, at times, I use will during practice
to let-go-but-focus-but-let-go-but-focus meditate and easily
return to mantra.
It seems that this paradox still is there for me
to untangle; I just wanted to share my thoughts.
I am not sure there is an answer other than
to live and experience the truth..
..or perhaps the let-go-but-focus-but-let-go-but-focus
is me, today, having sad/angry bhakti fuelling the practice?
I will report back regarding this..
You could be over-thinking things. All you need to do is to repeat the mantra silently in your mind and allow your attention to rest gently with that.
The will is involved, as without a will, you would not able to do this. And focus is involved as you are focusing your attention more on one thing than on anything else. So, as your will becomes stronger and your ability to focus becomes stronger you will tend to find that you stay with the mantra more and notice that you have lost the mantra less.
Eventually you may find that you never need to return to the mantra during a session because you never lose it. That is fine as well, if that is happening.
Maybe this question seem silly, but
willpower, too me, is varied in its intensity.
Depending on day, intent, thoughts and mantra, the will
wavers no?
Oh..Now I felt the longing for complete inner-silence or bliss.
As this would, per my definition, make the intensity of will irrelevant.
And yes, I am probably still overthinking it. Heh
Just keep coming back to your meditation seat and everything else will become clear over time. Keep Coming to the forums daily and reading/listening to spiritual texts help to keep Bhakti going strong and the will to meditate.
If you are referring to the intensity of your will to practice in order to experience complete inner silence, or bliss, then this is bhakti.
And yes, the intensity of this will does fluctuate daily, weekly, monthly etc. Even hour-by-hour. But as long as it grows gradually over time despite short-term fluctuations then we will be O.K.
Eventually bhakti subsides as we begin to realise that we are what we have been searching for.
