I don’t know even where to start. I’m gonna try to make this as detailed, but as brief as possible, I’m going through Kundalini awakening with the knowledge of it probably the last eight years because I have begun awakening consciously a few few years before that, but I didn’t know it was kundalini. I was born already with Kundalini flowing. I didn’t know this until later on in life from the start of my birth. I was told that I would be more mentally challenged because my mother contracted a birth disease, but I didn’t or did I because I consider myself Neurodivergent anyway I had lots of my neglect in my childhood 2 dysfunctional parents. My fourth boyfriend was a young age of 15 years old, where I lost my virginity and when he broke up with me, that means serious depression, which was my first incident of the Kundalini blowing me up and wait become a pretty big while I was surprised I did not know that though that was happening. Now let me backtrack a little bit around the seven or eight years old I had very much sexual energy, but as a little girl, I did not know what that was later went on to have pretty much a terrible child with my parents and I discovered a nightlife in New York City and was going to Clubs and I lost psychedelic and I didn’t know that that was not OK of course I know that now, but I then went onto to have a baby at 8:25 and I got humongous in weight to be a depression afterwards. I have many many lessons of trauma that I’ve been healing now that I just turned 51 yesterday and since my Cordney woke, the energy has been cleaning without me having to do anything like it’s going. I’ve cleared so much of my lessons I’m in a much better place mentally like all the family trauma that I had I feel so much of it. I’m in therapy. I’ve had a lot of the bad experiences with Kundalini. I cleared that all on my own, but the weight gain is on unbearable. I’ve been clearing the left channel for almost 3 years now the back root talker lower pain started probably two years after my initial rising. Kundalini has been going off all over my body. I had a eyebrow blast three years into the Kundalini awakening. By now since I’m doing so good so many ways I don’t work more than one night maybe two because I’m exhausted and it is overtaking my life. I mean I’ve made with at the same time. I don’t know how to really have energy either I do too much do I do too little and if I stop doing any practices I can make myself feel awful with the anxiety and the cleaning in the friction that I feel in the body. I do EMDR and I go to acupuncture, but I pace myself. I listen to myself and I either cancel when I don’t feel good or make the appointments far apart from each other because one way or another I have to help myself I’ve done the AI chat and it always tells me to reduce 20 I’ve done zero the Kundalini still aggravates me. I drink water, but I’m still blowing up in my stomach and my way I gained almost 70 pounds and I don’t feel like myself. I can’t look in the mirror I don’t recognize myself. And now as a reflect back, I see the same feelings I felt in the past when my youth and I said I would’ve never let this happen again, but this is beyond me. Can’t do much even walking hurts cleaning like it’s just I’ve been getting bigger and bigger. It feels like it gets stuck in my back in the past it used to flow much more smoother the spinal sweeps out the crown. I’ve had all that it just now feels like it just stuck. I thought with me clearing a lot of the trauma I have with my family. I would’ve been healed more by now. I know Saturn just went into Aries and I’m feeling in my body because I am having an Aries Stellium and even though the AI bought says to think of it as scenery, I literally could feel when things in the planets shift in my body when I’m gonna have a tough time but yesterday being April 10 my birthday I finally was given all this money like I haven’t made a lot of money in a long time to be able to save and I feel like I have so much to be thankful for already cause I’m well taken care of. That’s not the issue and I know I’m being provided for enough so that I can basically just feel like a vessel, but it’s so frustrating. I don’t know how much more I can take of this or what to do next I thought by now I would’ve cleared so much.
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It seems to be a known phenomenon for some people to gain weight in the wake of a kundalini awakening. I think it is probably because eating heavier foods can be grounding, so if the energies feel too strong, eating more can seem stabilizing. But of course that can be unhealthy. Perhaps it can be counterbalanced with a lot of walking, which is also grounding but burns calories.