Hello friends, hope everyone is doing well and okay during these times. I felt like sharing here because I miss Ayp and the people in it. I’ve been through quite a trip during the last ten years from ayp to sufism and advaita and to being in a gurdjieff group for the last six years… A lot of milestones and ups and downs which are part of the way and all is pleasurable in it’s own sense. Dark or white it’s okay. Yet recently as if my nervous system or my mind called me back to meditate again. And I undertook the I AM mantra again and I am sitting twice daily as instructed in the main lessons. No other advanced practice. There is joy in the practice itself.
Much love to all 
Ananda
Welcome back Ananda. I suspect with 3105 posts behind you, you were very active in the past. I would be interested in hearing a little more about your decision to leave AYP, what you discovered and what drew you back.
Hello, it was the constant overload of energy and a bhakti that was bad at self pacing. Plus there were outer effects that affected my decision to undertake a path of devotion back then.
As for what was discovered. It’s the same as everyone. The answer is a state and there is a kind of surrender. And I guess I am more normal than I ever was. With less spiritual states and visions and drama. As to why i’ve been practicing mantra meditation again. It’s the need for inner silence… Quietly and gently.
Love,
Ananda
Welcome back, Ananda. It’s always a pleasure to hear from you.
Sey
Good to see again SeySorciere 
Welcome back Ananda
Welcome back Ananda. Good to see you here again.
Ananda, welcome! My AYP practice has opened me to Inner Silence, and through experience, I have discovered I can bring it forth in the “midst of chaos” (whatever than means to you) just by asking for it when you are lost there. Hope you hang out here awhile
Hi, Ananda! I’m pretty new around here, but I’ve run into your name many times reading through older forum posts. Glad to see you’re back [OM]
-KC
KC’s post applies for me, too! I wish you well.
Ananda, Thanks for your response. It is nice to hear you feel “more normal.” Yogani does seem to emphasize the importance of not focusing on the scenery and self pacing. Sounds like time has been a good teacher for you.
Hi Ananda,
Welcome back.
Dear friends, thank you all. Good to see some familiar acquaintances are still here. Much love to all
“There is only one great life. I can enter into the experience only if I have first come to unity in myself, only if I have come to be a whole.”
~ Mme Jeanne de Salzmann
Welcome back Ms. Ananda. I’m rooting to hear more from you in this forum. 
Welcome Ananda
Welcome #127801;
We are so lucky, we go to the lake to fetch water and we see the reflection of the moon, Rumi.
I have put duality away. I have seen the two worlds are one. Rumi