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Yes. You are right. This is what happens…( many insidents at the bus for example…where people (no - not only men…that’s different…I know how to handle that) strangely just sit down beside me and start talking about themselves…I usually just let them…I don’t say much…I am just not closed.)
I will pay closer attention to these daily interactions…at work for example…it happens all the time. I just never experienced any uncomfort in them being close to me. I will keep watching…not in a biased way…just in an open way. Thanks for alerting me, Christi.
When you mentioned this book…my whole being responded in a surge. I must find it and read it. Thanks for that info.
You mean the radiance…harming people…
I can tell I must read this book…“daughter of fire”…just a sec…let me see if Amazon has it…
Yes…here it is: Daughter of Fire: A Diary of a Spiritual Training with a Sufi Master (Paperback)
by Irina Tweedie (Author)
I ordered it.
Yes…
If my daughters died…I would grieve them, Christi. Just like I grieved the loss of my mother and I grieved the broken marriage. But at the same time I rejoiced in the love emanating from the same heart that felt the sadness. I don’t grieve mamma or my ex husband anymore…it took this amount of time and purification to dissolve them in that. But I will still bond with the one that I love intimately…the one that resonates closely, closely to core…who thrives in own stillness. It is just that the bonding now is different…it doesn’t create an inner neediness…since I am so full of love as it is. Actually…that is not quiet true…because there is a need to bring joy. To smitten with joy. To rejoice in common joy. But I realize that it might very well create neediness in others…I do experience this…there is definitely a balancing point here. It is such a joy to share this journey. And would I grieve such a friend if lost to me? You bet! Yet would that stop me from living a human life…risking the surfacing of ego?..No way. All of my “education” when it comes to wisdom happened through facing life - not avoiding it.
Yes…let me refraze the question…
“How can I truly expand in love if I don’t express it?”
It is not enough sitting at home flowing over…this has been so for a while…but the flow urges me to spread it…and interacting with people in need is deepening the perception of the great compassionate power that love is.
And judging from the light in peoples eyes when we interact…and from the happenings afterwards…all is well so far.
Thank you so much for your guidence, Christi. And for the book
No, I wasn’t referring to using radiance as a healing method when I was writing about departing from conventional yogic wisdom above. I believe that all yogis end up using radiance to help others, they don’t have much choice. If it is pouring out of every cell of your being, out of your hands, out of your heart, out of your eyes, then how are you going to not use it?
And it is not just yogis who use it, but all spiritual teachers and guides. Jesus used it, that’s how he healed people with his hands in the temple, and it is what was happening when he turned around in the crowd and asked who had touched his cloak.
When I wrote about departing from conventional yogic wisdom it was in response to these lines:
The conventional wisdom is that the ego is burnt up like a moth entering a flame. One day you will be able to remember that you used to be called Katrine, that you used to have an age, a body and so on. And you will be able to function in the world knowing that others still believe that to be true.
That’s the conventional wisdom, as I understand it. My remarks about conflict and grief were as guides, or ways of measuring any extent to which any departure in this respect is impacting your spiritual progress. “And you shall know them by their fruit” is the best measure of success on the spiritual path.
We are both lovers of truth, so I am sure you won’t mind me going on about this. I just wanted to clarify that
I am in an internet cafe as I write this, and on the wall is a picture of an eye, with the words “the eyes are the windows to the soul” underneath.
p.s. Good luck with your new meditation group.
Christi
Please do go on and on about this! I enjoy it, Christi
Yes…The shine is genderless, ageless and not limited to the body…
But I still am an intimate personal expression. The personal aspect is somehow allowed to be in here. And if it were not…then the embodiment could not happen. I don’t think of myself as the person Katrine…not even when I think do I think that. I experience myself as presence, clarity, love. But it is a personal experience. (Sorry…I don’t know if i explain this rightly…it is still a bit muddled…)I guess what I am saying is that the person is not the same as being personal (on the contrary). If the person is the image/ego… the personal aspect is that which is unique spirit in all and everyone. And right here…in this lifetime…it is called Katrine.
Today I went to my 3rd Rosen therapy treatment. This woman…she reads the body…and her touch is exquisit. She is well aware of the level of awareness…but my body has inner energetic knots from the brutal cancer operation and also from the trauma of the divorce last year. Now that things are flowing freely…these knots are released…the body responds to the inner transformation. And the thing is…that the traumatized areas have held back the personal aspect of the presence. So…when I say embodiment happens through the person…what I mean is it happens through the allowence of the intimacy of the personal aspect…and I guess this is the moth being consumed to a greater and greater extent but at the same time - even if the whole moth is consumed - contributing with a particular hue in the light of the flame. A unique timbre. The flame is original in its expression. This is what embodiment is to me…the blending of heaven and earth resulting in no alike flowers.
That’s great!
Your screen is an eye too
It reminds me of
Imagine all the beauty displayed in this forum!
Thanks, Christi, I always enjoy talking with you.
Hi Steve
Your post is exquisite… You just made the most beautiful summery of all that is happening.
I thank you from deep, deep down…I hope there are many in your vicinity that benefits from your own open heart
Hi Katrine, Hi Christi,
Thank you both so much for sharing … ahhh … feels so good reading your posts … Each of you have touched my heart … so beautifully describing the transition that is now taking place … between ‘healing-doing’ with energy and ‘being-allowing-sharing’ letting the Love work completely without interference.
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I was facinated by the books…but didn’t understand much of it. I read them through and never thought about them until the retreat this summer. When I came back I dug them out from a box in the attic and I read parts of them again. I understand all of it now…but the funny thing is…that there is too much “doing” in them now.
I just can’t function through a method. I must be able to release constantly…
Does this make sense?
[/quote]A number of years ago, I too had the opportunity to read the same books and took some preparatory classes with two of the teachers that taught at Barbara Brennan’s school. I was not enrolled in the four year program as it was too expensive for me. But I still learned alot from them and from the healing sessions I received. Barbara has certainly contributed much to the healing arts profession.
For me, what you and Christi are describing and becoming is the next step. Beyond healing, I might call it wholing because it constitutes a more direct means of transforming the consciousness and vehicles. As you have so clearly written, it is beyond ‘technique and doing’ and touches another person, place, event … existence itself from inside-out from the very core of All-That-Is. It can address whatever is needed in the moment, be it awareness, bodies, time-lines, lifetimes, genealogy, morphic fields etc. in an integral complete manner without one consciously having to know or recognize all the particulars. What is required is surrender of Self to Source and letting the Love work completely in a free and unencumbered way. Inner silence and an open fully functioning Heart are the keys.
In this non-doing and being, in the surrender of Self completely to the ‘Source of Self’ … the ‘True Source’ … the ‘Source of Love and Light’ … magic happens. One becomes an instrument, a sacred space of joy, allowance and acceptance, of being in-love with Source opens a portal spanning all dimensions and beyond dimension to pure Love itself. There is no forcing … there is no doing … the pure Love of Source works directly touching the essence of who we are. In addition when necessary, the Love calibrates itself perfectly to what is required and can serve as a carrier wave to bring in any other frequencies needed, in sequence or blending in combination. It works through flow, radiance and resonance. Moreover, the Love can move beyond the sequence and duration of time to bring about the best possible outcome for a given condition or situation by directly shifting our consciousness and morphic field in a way that better reflects a complete accordance with the Love and Will of Source.
Our continuous gratitude and surrender of our life and whole Self to be used as an instrument to freely share the Love with others provides a medium that allows the Love to work. It is a very special opportunity for each of us … so much joy, light and love for everyone. And remember and realize this is not just energy, it is the Love of True Source which is complete. As this occurs, the Love benefits both the one receiving and the instrument. We begin to learn more and more about the real meaning of Love through the direct realization of our Heart. This pulls us, our real Self, closer and closer to the Source of Self, our True Being, to the Source of Love and Light transforming the pure silent nature of our inner Being into a permanent part of the Love. Borrowing a word from Katrine, smitten and in-love, we now are becoming part of the Love. This is done naturally without effort with a sweetness, joy and gentleness that floods our entire being. The delight of being becomes alive in Love.
Energy and the Light are not the same. Nor are the Light and Love the same. In a very real sense the Light is merely the outermost radiation of the Love. From ‘Hands of Light’ to an ‘Instrument of Love’ to ‘Love Itself’. The Love of Source is complete and what we truly are. It can transform anything … condition, place or event … and when fully freed by our complete letting go can do so in an instant and do so perfectly without doing at all. In Joy and Grace and Love there is no limitation. Indeed, we are truly blessed.
Within the inner silence, the potentiality of all possibilities exist. Given the opportunity by an open Heart, containing all possibilities within itself, the Love of True Source knowingly and lovingly selects and gives the best all ways … always. The Heart knows the way … may it be our guide.
We are all learning day by day. Thank you both for being such beautiful expressions of Love and through your posts and sharing teaching each of us through the particulars of your individual journeys. It is deeply appreciated.
Love and Light,
Steve
Hi Katrine,
Sorry about the out-of-order posting. When you were posting, I was editing and found it easier to just delete and re-post.
It was your and Christi’s beautiful dialogue that opened and inspired my Heart to respond. Truly, it is all the Love of True Source and a joy to share with you and everyone. I thank you and the many others on the forum whose wonderful postings continue to inspire me on a daily basis.
Love and Light,
Steve
