Hello again dear Friends,
only five days passed and terrible fear and childhood traumas come along. 
I try to feel it and heal it but it is very very difficult, i canot sleep at night, and i realised A LOT of anxietys that i have all my life!!
I am very angry as well, sould i stop TPP and go buck to the DM???
Any idea is very very welcom
TPP is tough, make no mistake about it. I wanted to quit, I think everyone wants to quit when they do it. I believe we are given what we need and can handle.
With that being said. If it is really to much for you to deal with right now then yes go back to AYP and let it do it’s work.
Thank you Jonesboy!
I feel very bad, and i cry nonstop 
I am afraid that even the DM canot help me
I feel that i have to rescue my inner child, but i donot know how,
Where is the joy and hapiness in my life? I have every think and i am seriously unhappy, searching for answers, seasching to undersdend why i am so miserable, always searching, always some anxiety why???
I hope God will help seriously this time!!!
About the inner child any Idea is very well come!
Have you tried stopping all practices for a few days to see how that works?
Good Idea i ll do it!