One more thing Godslave
Life is very ordinary once there is a solid maturity due to introspection and the yoga practices
That happens to all of us
The fireworks are left behind too 
…they are scenery too
You are doing great!
Thanks so much for your encouraging comments, maheswari!
Very inspirational Godslave, good to hear from you again. I came from a Catholic upbringing, and by high school knew the true redemption was not whispering confessions to a priest in a closet. It took many years of living, and then AYP, to confirm that I am the church. I have reached a state where I can commune with Source simply but being quiet and open enough. No past Catholic experience has filled me in such a complete way.
You have come so far in spite of your challenge. Good for you for staying curious and trusting in yourself. I have true healing experiences attributed to my disciplined practice, physically, mentally, and emotionally. Every day I feel is an opportunity for betterment.
Good to hear from you, Dogboy