Whatever happened before is past and unchangable. You needn’t keep engaging with it. You may have the misconception that YOU need to wrestle with all the hooks, that YOU need to sand down the roughness and erase the tablet. That YOU need 14000 horsepower of effort to 'make up" for what’s done.
Whatever YOU do is just more “doing” stuff. You can’t counteract doing with more doing. By recoiling from your past, you are engaging with your past - attached to your past. And that attachment is an impediment. So the good news (and it’s actually identical to The Good News, but that’s another story) is this: you needn’t personally clean up your interior mess. Your efforts to shoot down the blips is just creating more blips! Ayam is enough. Mindlessly hand the task over to Ayam. Let go, let, uh, Ayam.
If you can’t meditate - if your mind and nervous system are just too jangled from life situations to allow quiet for any sustained time - that’s another thing. But if you can meditate, that’s all you need. Your over-the-top striving is just 1. making it harder to meditate (by turning your body into a disaster area) and 2. creating more mud on your windshield for the practice (not you! the practice!) to clean off.
I hope this helps.
Thanks Jim, it helps 
. I’m going to stick with the shortened-session twice a day meditation for at least a couple weeks before I make any changes. I’ll post on this topic every once in a while to give an update on how things are going.
I’d suggest months rather than weeks. Again, I’ve been doing very little but basic practice for two years, and don’t feel in the least like I’m lagging behind. “I Am” is enough.
But whatever you do, I’m rooting for you!
One other thought Iced Earth–you might experiment with “whole body” breathing. That is: breathing in as though your whole body is inhaling, breathing out as though your whole body is exhaling.
The converse approach–“breathing into” the specific areas of pain or imbalance–could aggravate the situation. Ditto focusing too much mentally on the imbalances–which of course is hard not to do.
The “whole body” breathing (described by both Vivekenanda and Swami Rama) can, I think, help give your energy system more spaciousness and help allow blocked or trapped energy to redistribute itself.
Thanks for the suggestion, Juliet. Lately I’ve been taking a deep nap in the afternoon, basically doing what you described. It is a bit helpful, and my more severe symptoms have been toning down since I cut down on all practices. I still have quite a ways to go before this energy settles down.
I’ve had a problem during sleep for the past few weeks. I get woken up in the middle of the night by an ultra loud shriek in my head. It has been quite scary, and it happens if I fall asleep on my back. I think it’s associated with the center of head/crown area.
Other than that, I’ve been sticking with deep meditation and experiencing much silence. I’m curious to know if a particular variation of Yoga Nidra could be helpful in redistributing this energy away from the head.
Hi Iced Earth,
If you get Yogani’s new book “Samyama – Cultivating Stillness in Action, Siddhis and Miracles” there is a technique described there called Cosmic Samyama, which will also work toward yoga nidra if done before going to sleep. It could possibly help with issues with energy in the head.
Hi all, just wanted to give a heads up on my progress. I’ve been keeping it simple and the energies are finally settling down. I still have a few bothersome symptoms as might be expected but meditations have been deepening. Right now I’m slowly adding asanas, one at a time so that I can notice if any troublesome symptoms arise.
I also want to recommend the Yoga Sutra studies on www.swamij.com . He gives much advice on keeping the mind calm and one-pointed throughout the day which helps deepen meditation and purification. Good luck and thank you to all!
Great to hear things are going well, IcedEarth! 
I find it to be a lot of trial and error before you find your own pace with less symptoms! Once you find the balance you can just float along and relax in trust and peace.
I’m still getting some strong purification symptoms with even 10 min of meditation. During my practice today I entered total darkness somewhere within the spine/head area. I felt much energy moving around in there and I had to rest extra time. It was actually a bit frightening to get so deep. Reminds me of some of the passages in the Bhagavad Gita describing Arjuna’s witnessing of the cosmic form.
Are these symptoms of energy sorting itself out?