Hi ivorm,
Beautiful experience 
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Out of curiosity, did you get the feeling that you “know” this woman?
Only thing that comes to mind reading your posts is:
If the universe is quiet, maybe it is so because it wants you to figure out what do you want.
Best of luck!
Hi Mykal,
---- Out of curiosity, did you get the feeling that you “know” this woman? —
I’m not sure. She was only in the UK for 10 days, but I saw a lot of her (in group situations) and we seemed to get on well.
We had a lot in common and I certainly felt an instant attraction to her - although I’m not sure that it was a sexual attraction.
I should mention that she is incredibly good looking and a lot younger than me.
In some ways, the memory of her is fading a little. She left the UK about 2 months ago and I haven’t had contact with her for about 4 weeks.
— Only thing that comes to mind reading your posts is:
If the universe is quiet, maybe it is so because it wants you to figure out what do you want. ----
Maybe you’re right, Mykal. I have to say that I’m out of ideas at the moment.
For a few days after the kundalini experience, I could still feel the energy flowing within me and everything in my life seemed to go amazingly well.
However, then the energy subsided and now everything is going wrong and I feel my life is crumbling around me.
Things will smooth out. Letting go a little might help.
When the awakening starts to happen it’s like a new force emerges. I think it’s grace. But we may still be trying to control things from our old mindset. When we do, it’s like trying to function with two ‘control centres’. It doesn’t work well. We have to learn to let go of the old mindset.
This is hard to put into words. Perhaps I shouldn’t even try. It’s like making the theory of walking to a toddler who’s just learning to walk (by the way, I’m still learning to live with the grace myself). You will work it out. Or rather, it will come to you. Spinning thoughts in your mind won’t do it. Relax, go with the flow.
That’s what yoga teaches me: surrender is EVERYTHING!
[quote]Originally posted by ivorm
Charliedog: Thank you for your lovely post.
It’s good to know that someone else has had a similar experience.
It sounds like you’ve had an interesting and fulfilling 10 years.
Can I ask you a question ?
(It will probably annoy the people who have already given me good advice 
)
The person you made eye contact with . Did you speak to him/her about it ? Are they still in your life ?
Hi Ivorm,
Because it was a professional relation, therapist/client, the person did not want to have a personal conversation after that moment…I shall never know how it felt for that person…but for me the moment was life changing. It was also frustrating because it didn’t left my mind, is was such a strong feeling, pulling, magnetic, like time stood still…but now I know the feeling did not left me anymore, after that I found that feeling sometimes in music, in poetry, in my relationship, in other people, in all kind of moments, the longing, the love, the power. The incredible energy.
But as I said it is 10 years later now, and I am sure that the feeling nothing has to do with the personal, it was my first real K experience.
Kundalini is such a strong power, loving, caring, magnetic, hot, it is overwhelming in the beginning but it is not personal. See it as your Guru, God, Universe, All, Cosmic. You can find in silence some answers on your questions, nobody else can give answers to you. We can help eachother, but only by our own experience. As I said, I had no experience with yoga and meditation back then, but as I see it now, my Guru send me this way. Everything is happening, but sometimes it takes a while to see the picture. I wish you Love&Light 
And yes SURRENDER is everything, but also that takes a while to understand.
BlueRaincoat : Thank you again for your advice. It is very helpful.
---- Letting go a little might help. ----
Yes. I know you are right. But I’m finding it hard to do this at the moment.
CharlieDog : Thank you for taking the time to reply.
Your comments are very inspiring.
Best wishes.
Ivor
If letting go doesn’t seem feasible at the moment, perhaps the advice Yogani gives in this lesson will help you:
http://www.aypsite.org/110.html
And if you feel Lesson 110 takes you in the right direction, perhaps Lesson 67 will help further.
http://www.aypsite.org/67.html
Towards the end there is a section about redirecting desires through bhakti.
Best wishes
Many thanks for your help and guidance, BlueRaincoat.
You are a good person.
Best wishes,
Ivor
I concur!