oh WOW!.. so k was active before I even knew it. I am not even sure what to think now. This is getting deep for somebody like me that is a total noob to the process. Am I right in thinking that its not a matter of “If” it will happen but a matter of “when” it will happen?
For me one of the most important things is don’t push the energy, it will backfire for sure.
I had to make a couple adjustments regarding my diet especially cut out sugar since it burns too hot when the kundalini is active.
It is usually in the beginning of the transformation process that it can be a bit bumpy but this will smoothen out over time.
thank you! I have decided that I am going to let it take its natural course because it sounds like it will happen anyway. If it happens it does. I am going to do my best not to fight it.
If I were you, I wouldn’t read a lot of kundalini mishap stories. At some point, I’d recommend you read the AYP Lessons. You’ll understand the advice you are given here in this thread a great deal more.
Hi JR8036,
Thank you for sharing your story, your story shows much similarities with mine, looking back, the start was confusing but once there is more knowledge (which you’re working on) this could be the most beautiful journey in life.
Change is coming, enjoy and surrender. 
Thank you I’m glad I am not the only one in this position
I am sure I should do like lalow said and not read any more mishap stories. But, my greatest fear in this is becoming totally insane from it. As far as I know I am still sane. Nobody has told me different.
I sure hope I can handle the event.
Yes, agree with Lalow. Relax and stop reading the horror stories. You have all the lessons here, you won’t go insane.
If it happens, you already know what it is. You just need to surrender to the energy, that’s it.
If you are able to, practice DM. This helps to cultivate inner silence.
ok maybe I should mention another thing I got on my mind and that i am wondering about. I have never done any hardcore drugs in my life. fact is the last time i had anything to drink was when this first started. i was so confused about it at the time i said the hell with it and had a couple beers. i did not get totally wasted but was very tipsy so to speak.
And I think that might be the last time I ever drink again because when I started I almost thought I could hear k scream. I felt bad for what I done when I heard it.
One other thing i think this will be the last one…lol… I smoked 2 packs a day for a about 15yrs last year I quit doing that and picked up vaping instead. What kind of impact will that have on me? I am sure k will tell me when I need to give it up I m sure I need to anyway just a habit right now.
If you need a bit more explanation on what kundalini actually is, David Spero has a couple of good videos about her: https://youtu.be/VDa6nScKbKo and https://youtu.be/Z_Ux7XF7BvA
Hi JR8036,
Becoming drug free (which includes caffeine, nicotine and alcohol), would be a very good move at this stage in your life, if you are able to do it. Kundalini is a purifying energy, so if you are putting impurities into your body, there will basically be more work to do.
There is a brief description of what kundalini is on my site here and something on the relationship between kundalini and ecstasy here, which you may find useful.
Basically, all the answers to all the questions you are asking can be found in the AYP main lessons and tantra lessons. So you could be well advised to sit back, relax and do some reading. There are hundreds of lessons here and they cover the whole subject of kundalini in great detail and how to work with the energy right from the beginning of a kundalini awakening through to the final stages of the purification of the crown and of the awakened and expanded heart.
If more questions come up, feel free to ask here.
Christi
thank you as you can see I got a lot of work to do. as time goes on i guess i just need to find a way to settle myself down (I am probably overloaded with info right now and it is overwhelming). this is a lot for me to soak in after finding out this whole process thing is something that i can not say no too.
I keep asking myself why it decided to wake me up. And finding out it started long before I even saw it closing in on me is overwhelming too. Is this something we all go through or is it something just a select few of us do? Which I am guessing just a select few.
As you can see I like to have control on things that I can have control of. Not knowing what the future holds and something that I don’t really have control of is out of my boundary and not normal for me.
On the other hand those brief articles do explain why i feel warmth in my legs from time to time. Which I would have to guess it has started and is on the way someday.
You are waking yourself up. It’s not a select few.
Hi JR8036,
Yes, it’s a lot of info to take in. May be you need a break for few days from this. Eventually everyone goes though this at some point, if not this lifetime then next. 
It’s an opportunity to live your life from a new/different place. You are blessed to be going through this now. Consider yourself lucky and start your practices when you can.
Dear JR - Be honest with yourself . There is no way you are going to back out of this. This sentence above is the key, the thing driving you. This kind of desire for God we call Bhakti (Devotion)in AYP. It is the fire that lights the process. And we will walk on hot coals to the ends of the earth for it, never mind a little unstable kundalini.
Luckily for us, we do not have to go to extremes because Yogani has given us clear, simple techniques to engage with the Divine and cautioned to self-pace to manage this transformation in a safe manner. It is the most exciting journey you will ever take.
Welcome aboard!
Sey
yea thanks for the uplifting news. Now I have no idea if it is pain or it it is energy. More times than not it moves so i know then it is energy. Today brought me up a bit more than what I was in the mood for yesterday.
this thing is crazy and strange. I thought I would let myself have till sunday to get off of nicotine, which I thought would be a tall order for this kind of a drug. Maybe I should not celebrate too early yet but, about mid afternoon I somehow completely lost interest in anything nicotine related. I knew k would let me know when I needed to quit just never thought it would be this soon.
alcohol I have no prob cutting because I did not get hooked on it.
what do I tell my friends about me being and working on staying drug free? I am sure not everybody will be happy with me just saying well, its “health reasons” I am sure some will want more details than that.
I just don’t understand how you guys are excited to see me go through this.
This morning I had trouble breathing. It seemed like my breath would follow the flow of my energy which made it difficult to breath. Somehow I seemed to get enough oxygen so I could breath it was just uncomfortable and at times tiresome. I just don’t understand why you guys seem happy for me when I just feel miserable. Help me understand??
AARRRRGGGggg…why do I have these crazy mood swings!?
Hi JR8036,
They are birthing pangs. Even a caterpillar has to go through a series of transformation to turn into a beautiful butterfly.
Always good to clear with the Dr to rule out medical conditions. Patience, Trust and Devotion will take you a long way on this path.
Take it easy. Even though it may seem difficulty now~ try to enjoy this journey. Read the lesson on grounding. Don’t over analyze, let everything pass.
Sunyata
Thank u for the info I didn’t mean to rain on ur parade just a bit frustrated with these new symptoms. I am slowly realizing I won’t be able to live the rest of my life like I have my first 36 yrs.
Very good,JR8036. You are already learning to listen to the energy. Keep going. It’s your call resist or surrender.