Thank you, Sunyata & Dogboy. 
Most of my extended family is LDS. My mom and dad departed the family religion when they became adults. I grew up with an aversion to it due to social pressure to conform and join them in the celestial kingdom. Iāve immersed myself in and appreciate the worlds traditions and teachings. Iāve gained an appreciation for LDS and new connections are blossoming in my extended family. I recognize their desire to be with family for eternity. Itās not essentially much different to me than worlds and dimensions referenced in other texts. Love grows stronger in my family and we are recognizing each other, listening to each other and respecting each otherās point of view. Integrating perspectives through recognition, validation, and appreciation. There are aspects of me who are my cousins, and even when we couldnāt agree, we were still expressing aspects of each other. The essence of the emanation of every being who has affected my path is available to call upon and radiate their unique vibration.
When I was 6, the adults in my life began the story about me having ADHD. Society erroneously drugged me throughout my childhood. And they were not very good at understanding and naming conditions. I was an 80ās kid raised on Kool aid and rock music. A lot of energy as child and since, but no deficit of attention.
The first time I remember realizing that I get to choose my attitude, I had been in a sort of habitual depression for around a year. Then by grace I realized that I could will myself into a different way of being. Of course I had limited success with this going forward as I was in a kind of ārajasā mode, didnāt know who I was, had little mental control or discipline. This was 20 years ago. Naturally it leads to samyama and exactly what is helpful to go deeper into it. When it seems like I have no control over my attitude, response, or voice, I become aware of that and inquire: Is that really true?
This is good practice. The āknowingsā that bubble up from the silence following the question have weight because (after twelve years) you have built the infrastructure with DM and Samyama.
Yeah, that was and is a huge gift. Thanks only to grace that it ever even occurred to me as a wild child and also the chain of events it lead to. Through sports and a few great coaches, I came to appreciate fundamentals. Itās the same with practices in my view.
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