Give up

[karl]

@Bodhi Tree

Oh, c’mon man…haven’t you heard Frank Sinatra?..“Fly me to the moon, let me play among the stars…let me know what life is like on Jupiter and Mars.” Cosmic samyama.

We can tell tall tales I can describe scenery or a holiday destination. However I’m not anywhere else than here and locked into the same illusion. I only realise it is an illusion and will work for no pay to dissolve it. I don’t expect a better place, indeed, who knows when the illusion is dissolved it might be far worse.
I’m walking into the cellar with eyes wide open. If I meet a mad axe man, zombie or oblivion down those steps then so be it. I have no cause to be concerned as my internal Guru is guiding me. I have nothing much else to do except ensure I keep watching the compass needle and not get too distracted. Its my only task. Keeping right on until daybreak holding a tiny flickering flame before me.
Ye though I walk through the valley of death I shall fear no evil…

[Bodhi_Tree (Cody)]

(Note to self: set up an elaborate prank in which I hide in Karl’s cellar with an axe in hand, dressed in zombie attire, then flip on the lights and do some dancing under strobe lights and a disco ball–also set up prior to his arrival).

[karl]

@Bodhi Tree

(Note to self: set up an elaborate prank in which I hide in Karl’s cellar with an axe in hand, dressed in zombie attire, then flip on the lights and do some dancing under strobe lights and a disco ball–also set up prior to his arrival).

Sounds like fun.

[Radharani (Jamie Brown)]

@Anima Deorum

I feel really depressed now. I feel like giving up all my ambitions and efforts. I feel like isolating myself. Like I’m an animal that need to crawl under a cool rock and disappear. I feel hopeless and deluded, deceived, even. Lonely like my words are poison and like I’m dangerous. Also, completely rejected by AA. Just feel like giving up.
But I do care about something. I must.

Dear Anima,
It’s been a few weeks since you originally posted this and I hope things are going better for you.
Everybody has already given you some good advice and feedback.
I would just like to add, w/ regard to the feelings you described above: “it’s ok to feel whatever we feel.” This may sound obvious, but for some reason it often eludes us. Like, we feel sad and then we turn around and beat ourselves up for feeling sad, as if that is going to help! So in my experience the first step is simply to accept what we feel, take a deep breath, allow ourselves to feel it, and then ultimately let it go. Feelings come and go. It’s ok. No big deal, it’s just life. Be kind to yourself if you possibly can. This too shall pass.
Love & hugs.

[Anima]

@Radharani

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Dear Anima,
It’s been a few weeks since you originally posted this and I hope things are going better for you.
Everybody has already given you some good advice and feedback.
I would just like to add, w/ regard to the feelings you described above: “it’s ok to feel whatever we feel.” This may sound obvious, but for some reason it often eludes us. Like, we feel sad and then we turn around and beat ourselves up for feeling sad, as if that is going to help! So in my experience the first step is simply to accept what we feel, take a deep breath, allow ourselves to feel it, and then ultimately let it go. Feelings come and go. It’s ok. No big deal, it’s just life. Be kind to yourself if you possibly can. This too shall pass.
Love & hugs.

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Hi Radharani, and thanks again for your concern. My mood is very unstable. I guess that proves you right! :stuck_out_tongue: Thoughts and feelings pass by like water under a bridge. People look at me strange when I say that about myself. Thank you for telling me it's okay. :pray: