Second Part:
I entered the room… 7 by 5 meters… There were 3 to 4 rows of seekers before me… setting still & silent… facing them was this luminous mass of shining light… Without any exaggeration or symbolism this what my eyes saw… I continued to see all what surrounds me as golden waves … The master was setting silently cross legged… Powerful still presence… Looked into our faces with a sharp eye… Checking & contemplating us… I didn’t dare to look into his eyes due to the immensity of light emanating from him… He then spoke… He told us something but I couldn’t hear nor understand… Everything was in the form of luminous light waves… I was drunk… He expanded on his talk… Explaining with his head & hand the hows of practicing the Zikir & commanded not to convey it to others… He concluded his talk by: “You have the permission in the great name”… He gave a sign then which some understood that now we are permissioned to leave… We left moving backward without turning our back to the Master… Wayfarers taught me this as part of respect.
I left drunk… Waves of lights dancing… I chanted with the rest… I cried… At night the Master came out… He sat facing thousands of wayfarers… It was hard to see him… He talked about love & how traveling is not easy… And how our travel to meet him is a sign of love… Wayfarers told him that residents of this village claimed that this man “The Master” is a sorcerer… He bewitches people to travel to him & love him immensely J… He replied: “Is there someone whom I have hit with a stick to visit me?” J… From afar of the gathering a wayfarer shouted: “Master I want to salute you & kiss you!”… The Master replied: "And what would you prefer!! To salute you from within my heart or do you want to get close to me & salute you with my body!! The wayfarer shouted: “Both, Master”… The Master smiled & replied; “Too much, you wouldn’t be able to handle it”… Instantly many wayfarers exploded in one spontaneous voice screaming “ALLAH”.
========================== I returned back to my hometown leaving my heart with the Master… I was fully charged with a massive energy… I slowly recognized a presence of knowledge in my heart I didn’t know earlier… I don’t know how but I came to realize many things I didn’t know… I understood it without any previous learning… In my hometown a good number of wayfarers lived nearby… We agreed to meet periodically… On the way back to my hometown one of the advanced wayfarers expounded in details on how to do Ziker given by the Master… It was as if I heard it for the first time as at the Master’s presence I wasn’t able to neither hear nor understand… The nearby wayfarers & I agreed to meet nightly & practice the Zikir together.
We gathered at Sir Sami’s house… In a dark room we sat… We arranged the space in a way that whoever felt asleep can sleep at the same spot… I sat cross-legged and did Ziker… I can’t describe in detail the methodology of the Zikir… The secret is not in the method itself but in a secret the Master seeds in the wayfarer’s heart, this is what we call “permission”… But it is summoned up in a certain way of chanting with eyes closed while visualizing a certain image.
We started with Ziker & I had not a speck of any expectation… I had no clue why I’m practicing anyways… But I understood that to realize divine love is by practicing the Ziker given by the Master… The Master commanded us that those who practice & get enlightened should revisit him… I didn’t understand the meaning of enlightenment… I didn’t have any preconceived notions… I just sat & practiced.
15 minutes passed & nothing special… I just felt a heavy feeling… My ego-self tried every trick to stop me… I opened my eyes to drink water… This was surely a trick to interrupt the practice… I rushed & overcame these tricks… Drank & returned… Suddenly without any notice explosions of light thunder would occur in the space of my closed eyes each time I chanted “ALLAH”… My body shacked sometimes… A door opened in front of me & all the dark space in my third eye transformed into the most beautiful scenery… A green land with magical running rivers. This happened the first day… I got tired & laid down to sleep in my place… When I woke up at dawn my mouth was filled with this delicious like honey taste & I would smell these ongoing aromatic fragrances.
I Practiced Zikir for a year & a half… It was abundant with mysteries… The whole universe responded to me… I could hear people’s thoughts… All what I uttered would manifest… I visited my Master several times setting in his presence… He would ask who got enlightened!!.. I remained quiet; I didn’t consider myself enlightened yet… beside that I didn’t even understand what this word meant… My sorrow was immense each time I left & some wayfarers remained… I cried so hard that I didn’t get enlightened & hadn’t reached the sought after… I have experienced different states in these 18 months… Periods of vigor & practicing & periods of great coldness & laziness… I wouldn’t hide from you that the periods of practice were scarce but I held great love for God & the Master.
In these 18 months I suffered a lot, I endured periods of great darkness; where my ego-self would magnify an insignificant problem to a gigantic one… Ziker was like a magnifier… I saw everything big… If I was in an ecstatic state then I would be the
most ecstatic and if I were suffering I would suffer immensely… The advices of my Master were indispensable… They supported me all the time… I could hear him in my heart answering all my questions… By and by detachment from the world became my state… My parents worried about me… Paying very little attention to the world is considered a crime in people’s perspective… I considered this part of the challenge… I will not dwell in describing the happenings in these 18 months from the expansion of mind & consciousness to full on physical & spiritual mysteries… Let me get to juice of it.
After these passing 18 months I went through severe ruthless times of depression… One night I went to a place afar from people & sat at the curb… I cried harshly talking to God… Sir Tawfiq passed by me…
Sir Tawfiq is one of those wise ones deeply rooted in the Absolute… He had a normal appearance… Dresses up similar to all else… He used to say: "A real Mukta is someone if you saw you wouldn’t notice "… His satanag gatherings were one of my life dreams… I got closer to him slowly by service & being silent in his presence… He was strict with me, we barely talked… He didn’t open up to me or got kind until after a long period of tests… When he realized how determined I am to win his company he made it clear that his company is hard & few can tolerate it… I showed my willingness… Love was my main urge… I reached a very high level of love & cessation of being in him… To the degree when he drank water I would gag… In the evenings he would ask me to attend his satsang… After sitting for a few minutes he would suddenly ask me to leave… I would comply without arguing… But I would walk home in distress crying & longing… Sometimes he would say: “Leave, doing Zikir would do you much better than attending satsang”… After a while he started allowing me to join him in his tours… Almost nightly he would go to have tea at Sir Ahmad’s house… At the door he would say wait for me… He would enter & leave me standing at the door from half an hour up to two hours sometimes… Both in winter & summer… other times he would send one of Sir Ahmad’s children to inform me that Sir Tawfiq says: “Leave now” I left immediately… Those waiting times at the door were the most effective in disciplining my ego-self… I awe him my life.
As I mentioned earlier… He passed by me while setting on the curb in great distress after 18 months of being initiated… Sat beside me in silence for more than an hour… Then I said: “Sir Tawfiq! I’m a failure.” He grinned saying: “Sir Yacin, you are the one which the song said in him:” My God blessed you from everything in completeness"… Tomorrow Sir Ahmad & I shall visit you at your house.
I prepared my place to welcome these tow precious visitors… I remained silent in their presence… Tremendous joy I felt because tow great Muktas were in my house… Mostly we communicated in silence… Sir Tawfiq inquired about my status in practice… I told him all the lights I saw vanished and I would feel very light as if floating in space surrounded by a sphere of air & a tremendous pressure & the ground beneath me would turn into water… He looked at Sir Ahmad & told him these signs are part of the lights… They commanded me to continue my practice & left.
Went back to my bedroom to sleep… The instant I laid down I left my body & found Sir Ahmad standing in front of me, his head pointed up to the sky praying: “Oh God, pull him beyond now now, Oh God, pull him out now now”… I heard him telling me in my heart: "The time has come to leave the sphere of creations (samsara) "… Upon returning to my body I felt a high vitality, called my fellow wayfarers agreeing to meet every night at my place to practice together… we were three… practiced four nights… Many transcendent states were experienced… After these nights we all traveled to visit the Master.
This time I decided to gather all my strength & courage to talk to the Master about my status… The three of us entered to meet the Master… The Master received the wayfarers in his sanctuary in waves… Each group according to their status… We were part of the first stage group… We sat; the Master gave a general satsang… Then he said his famous words: “Those who got realized the lights stay & those who didn’t go back & do more practice”… My two friends & I plus one more remained… The Master asked each one of us: “How is your status”… We each described our status in practice… The master was silent for a while & said: “A weak start”… He repositioned his setting & laid his rosary on the floor in a round shape & started giving us a initiation in the second stage.
The second initiation wasn’t a secret apparently but contained a vital secret in its essence… What happened is that He described the form of the heavens & how that the seven heavens are above each other, each is not unlike a sphere surrounding the one before it in a desert… He said this time we are requested to ascend beyond the whole realm of creation & cross over the heavens & the throne… And when we have crossed beyond all creation & entered the next world we should visit him… “From this moment forward you shall see the lights everywhere without even closing your eyes” He said… As if preparing us for what to come.
We left understanding that this stage is relatively short compared to the first stage… Its essence is to completely shun all attachments to creation both internally & externally… While leaving the Master’s room I was the last to leave moving
backward not turning my back to Him like I have been taught… Suddenly He looked right into my eyes & moved his arm to the skies in a very fast strong motion… With that movement I lost all sight of the world around me… I would only see a golden throne above waters like ice… The waters were a sea of light.
I gathered myself & left… I reached to the closest wall sat by it closing my eyes… Immediately the same scene appeared with that golden throne above a sea of chilled luminous waters… Obviously the Master with that arm motion completed what he requested of us to reach in the second stage… By that movement I instantly lost all kinds of attachments & everything disappeared… All died & only light remained.
