During night mass on the 24th Dec, I experienced Amrita in a different manner. I am not much of a church-goer but I do love to attend Christmas night mass. This year, I found I could not pray or sing along as words had abandoned me. I was just there holding the space for Christ’s presence. Then came the moment when the priest lifts up the cup of wine to bless. The smell of wine filled my nose and head so strong (although I was sitting quite a distance away) and the smell turned into taste and rolled down my throat as amrita. Rich, smooth and fruity.
Ive never experienced ojas spilling from the crown outwardly, Ive always felt it as an inner cool breeze leaking down from crown internally, but have experienced liquid seeping from eyes, ears, nose and abundant saliva that tastes like an electrified fresh mountain stream. I have produced amrita for decades (since childhood), but this was a new experience more recently. Spilling out everywhere, like a total surrender that somehting beyond me directed. During and after this experience I spent the day in a bliss much longer and more intense than ever. This all without current practice or expectation. The tears just spilled without sorrow, but for the bitter sweetness that usually comes with the bliss. I tasted them and they were like charged purified, living water. Copious amounts of saliva came and i kept swallowing every second. This lasted for a couple of hours. The only “practice” would have been abstinence…its not even abstinence anymore, just a blissful surrender and a type of being in the world but not of it most of the time, even though i choose to participate sometimes. In my tradition, which has no name, it becomes known that the nectars are made of endocrine secretions which are signalled from bindu/claustrum to be secreted into the CSF. Here they are multiplied/crucified by the electromagnetism of kundalini rising in the nervous system and the nerve plexuses/chakras. Jesus represents this kundalini in the first phases of awakening and cleansing whilst also representing the ultimate electrified and magnetised ‘oil’ that is secreted by the initiate. He activates Ida and Pingala in a dance and later You may know of him cleansing the feet of the disciples on Maundy Thursday. He is cleasing the cranial nerves in preparation for what He tells us will come after him. The Paraclete, the next teacher and eternal advocate. Holy Spirit is the final phase of full kundalini from the top down, the descent of Grace which can come as a lightening strike/tongues of the fire of Pentecost, which needs preparation. The shedding of karma, loving one another, surrender, which is what Jesus mandates on Maundy. This is our kriyas shedding karma/impressions out of the nervous system, surrendering attachment to spiritual fire/gnosis, total surrender, knowing, not knowledge. The Holy Spirit is the Spirit of truth that reveals the eternal flame within the human soul. In my tradition there are 3 deaths to the self,the 3 nervous systems rejuvenate and synchronise. The brain hemispheres join in the bridal chamber, the thalamus which places the crown on the soveregn head. Im spilling.